The disaffection, the demoralization, and the gap between one person and another only on the basis of the color of their skin, begins there and accelerates – accelerates throughout a whole lifetime – to the present when you realize you’re thirty and are having a terrible time managing to trust your countrymen. By the time you are thirty, you have been through a certain kind of mill. And the most serious effect of the mill you’ve been through is, again, not the catalog of disaster, the policemen, the taxi drivers, the waiters, the landlady, the landlord, the banks, the insurance companies, the millions of details, twenty four hours of every day, which spell out to you that you are a worthless human being.
You are thirty by now and nothing you have done has helped to escape the trap. But what is worse than that, is that nothing you have done, and as far as you can tell, ..
I was told at the age of six that it was NOT whether I was going to college but WHERE I was going to college. By the time I was 28 I was a single parent with two children, working 40 hours a week, living in a remade garage with a raised platform for my bed under which my two children slept. After paying for childcare, I had barely enough for the $50 dollar rental and food. If it were not for the kindness of others we would have gone without food.
I sold everything we had and went back to college to finish the last required year to complete my degree.
I was able to get welfare which paid for my child care and food stamps. I scabbed cleaning houses to make ends meet. Welfare still existed at that point. I asked them if I could get money to assist with this last year. My caseworker told me that, not only could they help me, but the fact that I would be getting a college degree would make a great statistic. Such a deal. The reality is that I was white and programmed to go to college. It saved my ass.
Clearly this was not the case for people of color ever. This is not the case for people of color now. There is only the school-to-prison-pipeline now for parents to
look forward to fear. Through this pipeline the prison industrial system has been streamlined to harvest workers primarily young black men to provide almost-free labor for corporate America.
Is it surprising that black people are enraged?
There is no longer any time to wait, for incrementalism, for politicians to do small fixes. The system must change from the ground up. Now. The Antarctic is literally sliding into the ocean at faster and faster rates making all if this moot.
I can so relate to the anger in these protests.
h/t Raggedy Ann