Rent is due and I haven't worked in such a long time I looking at being homeless quite shortly. I've got to generate $425 by the 5th of March, or I'm toast. (yikes!)

The good news is I finally qualified for SNAP benefits, but you can't buy toilet paper or paper towels with it. Gee go figure, I can get Alaskan King Crab, but not toilet paper. (I hate crab meat, any kind...)

My internet has been turned off and I have less than a month left on my cell service, which since I hit my "data cap" is slow as dog meat. (apologies to dog lovers...) I did meet guy living in the same building as me that has let me use his internet, but he lives on the other side of the building, so I only use my tablet or cell phone. (Writing on a tablet sucks, lol)

I had to move at the beginning of January because I didn't have rent then, but was able to move into a commercial building a guy I know owns, but he's not a forgiving as my former apartment manager. She was at least nice enough to not file eviction papers on me. I had lived there for 6 years and was only late on rent twice in the past year, and only then by a few days.

After my wife passed away in July of 2015, I tried moving into a smaller, cheaper apartment, but could not find a place that would accept either 6 months or a year's worth of rent up front. They all demanded that I have an income 3 times of the monthly rent, which is totally absurd, if I'm paying the entire lease, upfront. They didn't care. I guess they thought I was some kind of drug dealer or something. Heck, I even showed them my wife's death certificate and the insurance pay out. It didn't matter. (Don't ya just love capitalism) "I'm sorry sir, it's our corporate policy". Yeah, well, fuck your corporate policy bitch! (apologies Ladies, it's just a term of endearment for people I despise, nothing personal.)

Well the insurance money has run out and I've been selling all my video and photography equipment since Sept 2016 to stay alive. I have a few ad's on craigslist but nothing is selling. I guess Christmas has put everyone in the hole or more in debt and can't afford anything.

Here's a list of the item's I currently have for sale: (make an offer)

Dell XPS 8700 Computer w/ 16GB ram

2 - Switronix XP-L90A Gold Mount Battery batteries (Battery charger included) These batteries work with Anton Bauer equipment, just not AB battery charger.

64" Slyder Dolly The Digital Juice SlyderDolly Portable Linear Tracking System (64") allows you to capture quick, smooth short-run dolly shots up to a distance of 58.5" (148.6 cm) using camera rigs with up to 30 lb (13.6 kg) optimum weight. It eliminates the need to carry a full dolly system and track to capture the shots.

40" Slyder Dolly It's the same as the 64", just shorter.

Zoom H4nSp Audio recorder. These things are awesome for audio recording. SOLD

Shadow Kit The Shadow Kit is a portable lighting modification system that allows you to quickly create and adjust your scene's mood, style and setting using the magic of shadow patterns. This is especially useful when you need to transform the look of a bland boring space to create a more visually compelling shot. Contained securely within a stylish deluxe carry bag, the Shadow Kit includes three main components: a 36"-square retractable shock-cord frame, a 35"-square window matte and ten different 22 1/2"-square shadow pattern gels (also known as cucoloris or 'cookies') that attach to the window matte.

I've been to two job interviews in the past week. One with the Texas Campaign for the Environment and another to be a videographer for American Airlines. I have an interview today at noon with the Texas Clean Water Action.

If you can contribute a dollar or two, my paypal email is rooster@therantingrooster.com, or hire me to make videos to promote your essays, social media, personal blogs etc....

(I hate asking for help, I'm supposed to help others dammit!)

My blog site
My youtube
My twitter

******** UPDATE ******** 9:45 pm

First, I sold the Zoom recorder. I got 75 for it.

Second, I got a PM from a user who told me they sent me a little money via paypal, and when I logged in to paypal, I was humbled, there was a total of 210.00. Another user sent me a PM and was sending me a check for 25.00.

You people truly are my family.

The last time I heard from my so called family, I got a FB MSG from my mother the day after my wife passed away, asking how my wife was doing. (Pardon the expletive, but she's a fucking cunt!) Gee for the two and a half years my wife suffered, never heard a fucking word from anyone in my so called family. Not a fucking word! Back in the early nineties, I invested in my father's business when no one would loan him a dime, he was in debt to his eye balls and owed the irs tens of thousands of dollars. He fucked me out of my investment. Well, dumb ass me trusted him to keep his word. Nope. When my older brother wanted to buy a house in Seattle, I loaned him the down payment. Took him 4 Years to pay it back, but I never hounded him, never said a damn word. One of his friends got cancer and they were all about raising money, helping out left and right, but gee my wife gets cancer and not a fucking word. never lifted a finger to help, never even offered any support what so ever. Selfish fucking bastard!

You see, I met my wife in a heavy metal biker bar. Of course it wasnt a place she would go on her own, she just happened to be hanging out with a girl I once dated, but we wound up be just really great friends. My family didn't like the fact I fell in love with a woman I met in a bar. I used to play in a hard rock band (for most of my life) and my mother would always tell me Ild never meet a good woman in a bar.

Y'all are my family. Thank you so much, I truly am blessed. If it wasn't for y'all, I would probably lose all faith in humanity. Y'all have no idea how much y'all mean to me. Fuck I got to stop, I'm tearing up....