Open Thread - Friday, April 6, 2017
"If love in universal, no one can be left out."
~ Deepak Chopra ~
Greetings yinz funkin' guys. I hope all is well among the 99ers.
The mental part of the grieving process has taken some unexpected trajectories. Tuesday, I went for a mid-day motorcycle ride. I intended to ride to Durham, have lunch and come back home. As I got further from home, I had this foreboding sense of isolation. It was a feeling sort of like walking a high wire without a net. The feeling grew out of a sense of loneliness and the hole left when Sue died. I wound up puttering around the countryside within about 10 miles of home.
On the flip side, it feels good to have gotten through probate and completed my taxes. Two more things off the needs done list!
I have been drifting further away from the Internet and frequently lose track of the cell phone. I am convinced the Internet, along with TV/the media, is being used to herd the sheeple. Internet time also means alone in the house time, which has significant downside.
Spring has been coming on strong. Warm days and thunderstorms prevail.
The road trip plotting and scheming continues. I noticed that the fairing/windscreen was charged to my card, which means the deliveryman has it. As soon as I mount the windscreen, and GPS, I will be ready for some short trips, to shake out how/what to carry along.
It should give me time to mull over my blues.
That's funkin' it. Have a great funkin' weekend!
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Hi Tim,
You sound a bit tentative tonight, somewhere in between here and there, now and then. That seems perfectly natural to me, considering what your experience has been. You make me think about how one doesn’t have to travel far in distance to feel far removed when in between places, while looking for that elusive sense of home. I trust you will find, no matter how long or far you travel, a place of enduring comfort.
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Intrepid
We had been together since 1978. I miss her terribly. We embraced, hugged, held hands and touched one another throughout the day. I just want to hold her again. Is that too much to funkin' ask?
The individual has always had to struggle to keep from being overwhelmed by the tribe. If you try it, you will be lonely often, and sometimes frightened. But no price is too high to pay for the privilege of owning yourself. - Friedrich Nietzsche -
Good Morning, NCTim ... same here
I feel the same way since I am in Germany. I realize it's hard to be not "sheepled", no matter where you are and what you do. And I lose the sense for time as well.
I so much like your musical expressions. Thank You and all the best to you. Heh, I never rode a motorcycle, may be it's time to do it. There is a first for everything, no?
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Good day
The Internet is getting rather Orwelliam, and I am contemplating a significant reduction in my digital footprint. Staying off the Internet has precipitated other more beneficial activities. As soon as I finish Friday morning posts, it is off for the two hour walk. I have been walking without music and stopping to talk with the dogs
I lived in Hannover for a summer and loved the European approach to motorcycling. Hannover had a fabuous Hein Gericke shop, that I could not afford.
I'll need to get over my proximity anxiety before heading to New Orleans. I think it will be easier, because I will be in the car and there is less of a sense of isolation, than riding a motorcycle.
As long as you are in Germany, stop by the Ratskeller and have a plate of Lyonnaise potatoes for me.
The individual has always had to struggle to keep from being overwhelmed by the tribe. If you try it, you will be lonely often, and sometimes frightened. But no price is too high to pay for the privilege of owning yourself. - Friedrich Nietzsche -
Good morning, Tim~~
I, too, have been on the internet less and less these days. Lurking more than anything, but for less time. If the teevee is on, it's usually on PBS because I can't stand the mainstream channels and, luckily, we only have an antenna. Cable sucks.
I remember the summer of 1987 when I took my kids to Disney World. My husband died in March and I wanted to take the kids away for a while on July. Bags packed and heading to the airport, as we drove away from the house, I felt a loneliness and sadness that had not overcome me before. I looked back at the house and almost turned around. Couldn't explain it, just felt like I was leaving him behind, alone at the house. Looking back, that same feeling presents itself, but less intense. It takes time. You'll get through it. Talking about it is part of the healing. We're here for you.
Have a beautiful Friday and weekend, folks!
"The “jumpers” reminded us that one day we will all face only one choice and that is how we will die, not how we will live." Chris Hedges on 9/11
I was not expecting the feeling
... and was craving Pompieri Pizza. As the distance from home grew, the anxiety grew. I have always been a wanderer, and never intrepid about it. I think the ambiance, company and libation will make NOLA an easy trip.
The individual has always had to struggle to keep from being overwhelmed by the tribe. If you try it, you will be lonely often, and sometimes frightened. But no price is too high to pay for the privilege of owning yourself. - Friedrich Nietzsche -
Ah yes, the anxiety. My first trip to the cottage after he died
was a precarious 2.5 hours. I went back less than 10 times, after every warm weekend for over a decade. I miss it, new owners have done some clearcutting that I find horrifying in concept. Some neighbors are likely to have similar responses.
Who knew that the daughter of a former chemist, PhD on her own, would have scary symptoms of implanted metal allergies? I leave to get second cast removed in about an hour, wild with pain. I do not think my staple removal will be pleasant. I awoke with an egg swelling on my inner elbow with the Ti implant. Foot implant is stainless steel. Bionic babe. At least my implanted plastic cataract replacements do not bother me. I am very weary of pain. It does grind someone down.
Also, I woke to snow, predicted after driving rain yesterday. "Do not get the cast wet". Also thought about having snow tires on the car; need to have son-in-law or daughter get the summer tires out of the shed, which is currently blocked by fallen trees. I feel like the world is caving in on me. I have battled back twice but now thrice is an ongoing effort. Something gets carved off every time. Heavy coat Wx again today. Now 35 and winter wonderland.
Hey! my dear friends or soon-to-be's, JtC could use the donations to keep this site functioning for those of us who can still see the life preserver or flotsam in the water.
Hola mi soul (fine) amigo!
One, Two, Three,
What are we fightin' for?
Don't ask me,
I don't give a damn!
Next stop is (Syria)(Russia)nam.
And it's Five, Six, Seven,
Open up the Pearly Gates,
Well, there ain't no time
To wonder why,
Whoopee, we're all gonna Die!
---Country Joe and the Fish
Some things never change; they just simply get worse! Figured the above quoted lyrics were appropriate for today.
How many more days until JazzFest (a very good thing)? Rec'd!!
Inner and Outer Space: the Final Frontiers.
Hey OBF
The individual has always had to struggle to keep from being overwhelmed by the tribe. If you try it, you will be lonely often, and sometimes frightened. But no price is too high to pay for the privilege of owning yourself. - Friedrich Nietzsche -
Missed question first time
Three weeks until the Fest starts. We are doing second weekend, so my number is four weeks from yesterday. I am going to have to miss the first half of Widespread Panic to catch Dale Watson.
The individual has always had to struggle to keep from being overwhelmed by the tribe. If you try it, you will be lonely often, and sometimes frightened. But no price is too high to pay for the privilege of owning yourself. - Friedrich Nietzsche -
Yinz?
I'm from w estern PA/ Pittsburgh area and we/they say YUUUNZ.
It's a U sound not a I sound. There is a double plural form...yunzes.
I want a Pony!
Hey Arrow
Actually, I don't use either version. Dad was an English teacher.
I grew up in Lower Burrell, and lived in Oakland, Sewickley, Ross Township, Black Ridge and was living in Gibsonia when the NC transfer came. I even lived in Tower A, above The Original.
The individual has always had to struggle to keep from being overwhelmed by the tribe. If you try it, you will be lonely often, and sometimes frightened. But no price is too high to pay for the privilege of owning yourself. - Friedrich Nietzsche -
Ajax...Bravo...and Comet
Family home is in Beaver Falls. Grandma used to throw Joe Naimath and his teenage hoodlum friends out of Kresge's on a regular basis.
I want a Pony!
Oops
I left out Economy/Freedom. Dad was principal of Ambridge HS for ~20 years.
I would love to have a steak salad from The Hilltop, in Rochester. Or maybe we can just hang out at Hank's custard stand or Jerry's curb service.
I bought my first new car, 1979 Pinto, at the Beaver Falls Ford dealer just across the bridge from New Brighton.
The individual has always had to struggle to keep from being overwhelmed by the tribe. If you try it, you will be lonely often, and sometimes frightened. But no price is too high to pay for the privilege of owning yourself. - Friedrich Nietzsche -
As little kids
we would drive to one of the earliest McDonald's around in Baden on the river. we'd watch the slag cars pour molten slag down the bank next to the steel mill and eat 15 cent hamburgers.
I want a Pony!
Hola Compadre. It won't help a bit, but the the
reference of a sense of loneliness immediately brought this to mind. If nothing else, the music is soothing.
That, in its essence, is fascism--ownership of government by an individual, by a group, or by any other controlling private power. -- Franklin D. Roosevelt --
Thanks Sensei
I just try to keep busy. I figure as long as I am moving, it is tougher for the predators to catch me. Serious hanging out, this weekend.
The individual has always had to struggle to keep from being overwhelmed by the tribe. If you try it, you will be lonely often, and sometimes frightened. But no price is too high to pay for the privilege of owning yourself. - Friedrich Nietzsche -
Hey Tim, Tail of the Dragon...
You have been in my thoughts, please forgive my absence of late.
Ran across this a few weeks ago and thought you may enjoy: http://tailofthedragon.com/
Article says it's the best ride for a motorcycle in the USA. Don't know, been all around there but not on this road.
And, you may know the Old Greensboro Highway between Carrboro and Greensboro--pick it up on west side of Carrboro past University lake. I used to ride it to get away.
Please holler if up this way,
Sending a hug!
I am in awe of how disciplined and methodical and
productive you've been.
As for the feelings, just ride with them (pun not originally intended, but what the heck? I'll type my first thought.) As far as the internet, we love your essays, but do what you gotta do, man.
My favorite Auntie says "yiz." It is funniest in the future tense, as when she tells her daughter (my first cousin) and me things like "If yiz can't get a ride home, yiz'll just take the bus." No "n," though. Good thing. I'm not sure I could keep a straight face if she says, "Yinz'll take the bus.