Okay, I'll come clean on who I was at ToP.

"Hillary Windsock Clinton" (skip to "I digress" if you want the meat of this) was mine; I was user Occulus on ToP. I was banned after a drunk post in which I stated baldly that Clinton's supporters were my political enemies; IIRC this was actually prior to the Ides Decree. Truth being at the bottom of every wine bottle, I was handed my keys, shown the door, and had to surrender my Echo Chamber Membership Card (and store savings key, natch).

So now you know. Don't you feel more complete at having the fundamental quantum-level interconnectedness of the universe (h/t to Douglas Adams) that much further explained to you this fine day? Yeah, I thought not.

(Correlation info: I made many posts on ToP about USPS, where I was employed for many years in Kalamazoo MI- before my Midlife Crisis Meltdown and California Adventure, that is- and where I still live, in *much* better immediate surroundings. I think I still have paperwork that can (mostly) prove all this if anyone is so anal and suspicious as to doubt, and ask for it. Actually getting said proof will require.... incentive.)

I thought I lost part of myself when that ban happened (a bit purple prose, there), considering how much time I'd been there, but it was actually equivalent to what comes out in each morning's bowel movement and the ban actually removed some poison- if I may complete the analogy- from my soul. Now that I've been away from the site for a good while (and I haven't been back to that painfully glaring white waste of whitespace, even to read), I'm a much happier internet user, and generally friendlier to others, too. What a wonder. ToP had, for me, a negative personality impact in general.

I expect that that last observation is significantly non-unique.

I'm now in school pursuing an associate's degree (I'll be continuing to my bachelor's) in web design and webpage development, with a side order of Windows and Android application development. I'm happy to say I'm both doing *very* well indeed (3.89 GPA thus far) and am happier and more fulfilled after a little over a year doing it than I was during the entire seventeen years of my USPS employment.

USPS was a soul-killing job for me. I'm glad I left, in spite of the financial "security" it provided. It's very, very hard to reinvent oneself after age 40, and especially after a hard reboot the way I did it. It's paid off, though: here's my first client project (yay for a functioning and pretty Woocommerce store via PayPal as well as for mobile responsiveness on smartphones!), which was assigned as an overall course exercise for Advanced Web Page Coding.

I digress. The image below, which was run through Photoshop only to change the color mode because Drupal shifted my original CMYK-mode print-ready image to primarily teal and fuscia because why the hell not, is titled "Hillary Windsock Clinton" and was the final submission for my "editorial drawing" assignment in ANM101: Drawing Basics for New Media (in which I received a course final score of 100%. toot, horn, toot). Notice how the color change on the sock itself, the colors used, their placement, and the direction of the fade vs. the width of the sock (and in particular the truthiness breeze wind direction itself) are all symbolic design choices which, when taken together as a cohesive whole, amusingly illustrate her desire, nay, her campaign-bedrock absolute requirement to be all things to all people at all times, disregarding mutual party exclusion of voter point-of-view and internal logical contradiction, all depending wholly upon the prism of one's chosen party affiliation and its consequent natural scattering of relevant and often uncontested facts. Notice also that I used and altered her campaign logo without any attempt to obtain permission, because comedy, which is to say "fair use" with a dismissive sniff. So there.

I make no judgments here, of course. That would be wrong of me. I only observe. As purple-y as possible.

The music staff is the last three measures from the vocal line of Queen's "Bohemian Rhapsody", and kind of drives the point home with an analogically appropriate textual sledgehammer of my wide and deep contempt. The typography (text) was all hand-drawn, and was, pardon me, a copper-plated bitch to get correct:

hillaryWindsockClintonRGBMode.jpg

Neat, huh?

Kind of mean, but... well...

Feel free to post this at ToP, anyone (several times if you like, for impact and Great Justice), but please remember the attribution to Kyle G. Nally; this is part of my student portfolio. I was banned there since long before I produced this piece (but after I coined the nickname "Hillary Windsock Clinton"), and I want them to know, sent with all my love and kisses and warm fuzzy feels of course, that I still care about them and their candidate, I'm still thinking about them, and (perhaps most of all) that banning a user does not necessarily mean they cannot ever again provide content for their little echo chamber (THAT will stick in their craw like a treble hook), and from no actual existing user account.

Bitter, Party of one. Bitter, party of one, please... LOL

PS: Remember, an anagram of "Hillary Rodham Clinton" is "I'd only thrill a monarch!"

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riverlover's picture

They make much better door jewelry than to risk any being lost in snags. Think of DK like a nice hollow, now snag, easier to swim from. And.. Think of the children! They are all hooked high.

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Hey! my dear friends or soon-to-be's, JtC could use the donations to keep this site functioning for those of us who can still see the life preserver or flotsam in the water.

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Hey! my dear friends or soon-to-be's, JtC could use the donations to keep this site functioning for those of us who can still see the life preserver or flotsam in the water.

I had recc'ed that awesome post from a member supplying evidence that the primary was rigged. Hadn't ventured over there in a while when I clicked over just to read and rec that post.

Years with a flawless record, then get nicked twice in a year.

Anyway, Occulus I like your old handle! Sounds like you are doing well and might even be much happier than you once were. Good luck with your studies etc.

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I tipped and recced the rigging diary, and even added a comment explaining why I did. When I went back to my comments list to see what the response had been, there was a note about me having recced a CT diary, and strongly urging me to unrec.

Apparently, they're still using "CT" like McCarthy used "Communist".

I wonder if the 2 people who recced my comment got the same treatment?

I haven't been back, so I don't know my current status. Nor care.

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elenacarlena's picture

Apparently, they're still using "CT" like McCarthy used "Communist".

I got the same bash, uprated a comment with "CT" with no actual CT anywhere to be found. Took off my uprate as required, NR for a month anyway. Meh.

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It isn't easy, and it sounds like you're doing a good job of it.

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"Religion is what keeps the poor from murdering the rich."--Napoleon

Classic phrase from the bad Zero Wing translation.

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"We've done the impossible, and that makes us mighty."

Anja Geitz's picture

Your story. I think I remember you over at the GOS but unfortunately missed your glorious drunken swan song. If you're going to get bojo'd you might as well do it on your terms.

Speaking doing things on your own terms, I recently moved from NYC to California to begin a new life as well. Have had some successes but I still struggle too. Bigger picture is that I'm happier here and more hopeful than I was for the last ten years living in NYC inspite of having to start over.

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There is always Music amongst the trees in the Garden, but our hearts must be very quiet to hear it. ~ Minnie Aumonier

I'm a much happier internet user, and generally friendlier to others, too. What a wonder. ToP had, for me, a negative personality impact in general.

Same here.

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I'm happy for you and applaud your efforts to make all the big life changes, none of them easy. I love your artwork. It's aesthetically very pleasing while also getting the point across beautifully. I too am much less stressed than when I used to lurk "elsewhere". I found and find cognitive dissonance to be very draining, and even though accepting the degree to which the Democratic party, particularly the DNC, has been co-opted and corrupted was painful, all of those clichés about the truth bringing a sense of freedom and clarity are true nonetheless. I hope you enjoy it here.

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I really don't understand the fascination. I used to read stuff over there when Kerry was running, not much since. It's just a crappy, time-wasting habit, like my daily visits to Reddit to watch dog gifs.

Still, I'm amazed it lasted so long. It's basically the MySpace of liberals. There was some useful content during elections. But mostly the comments were just a bunch of superbitchy backbiting trolls.

I think the place was designed as a timesuck to keep people busy with clicktivism instead of activism.

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Damnit Janet's picture

One of my peeves that I kept to myself was whenever I did action diaries, dear people would usually comment, "you march for me!" or "I'm with you in spirit".

It's one thing to hear that from another activist or my family but to hear it from people whose only effort at activism was as you say clicking on a site or signing some online petition. It's like "my prayers are with you"... but it's better than the criticism and arm chair quarterbacks.

No, you are not marching with me. I didn't see your face on the pavement during the "scatter shot". I didn't see your "spirit" when they rolled in the robocops and the water tanks.

Also, too... Markos wasn't fond of anything I was about. Woman. Codepink. Street Action. Protests. OWS.

I like it here.

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"Love One Another" ~ George Harrison

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No, you are not marching with me. I didn't see your face on the pavement during the "scatter shot". I didn't see your "spirit" when they rolled in the robocops and the water tanks.

Much in these matters relates to why people weren't literally there with you.

Your humble scribe is essentially housebound, being disabled and therefore lacking the funds for housing and equipment appropriate to his condition (ground floor, no steps, van, etc.) Were it not for Colorado's universal mail voting (and thank Cat for it!), I'd find voting itself to be a challenge in the best of times and impossible in any worse ones. Background support, blogging, and "clicktivism" are all I can contribute these days. But in younger days when I could march, protest, etc., I did.

There's a difference between the likes of me and those of whom you speak -- who I know to really exist -- who aren't willing to risk stepping out of line for anything. It is one of the griefs of my current life that I'm no longer able to do that.

Sad

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"US govt/military = bad. Russian govt/military = bad. Any politician wanting power = bad. Anyone wielding power = bad." --Shahryar

"All power corrupts absolutely!" -- thanatokephaloides

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My brush I spoke with was a bit too broad. I apologize for that.

I also had a chat friend who was disabled and housebound and she would message me that I was marching for her. That gave me some strength because it wasn't an empty platitude. And, like you, she had in the past done her own "marching".

My best friend would be the person I'd call too and from a protest. She wasn't with me in person but she helped me along on my journeys. I think the hardest part for me would be leaving my kids and then being all alone as I would travel to the destination. Be it DC or just into town. There's that moment of complete alone.

But I knew I never truly was.

Sorry if my brush stroke was too big. It was not intended to be directed at all. Just at the emptiness of some "clickivism" and the empty platitudes. Personal peeve that I can't quite explain in full detail probably because i don't truly understand it myself.

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"Love One Another" ~ George Harrison

Was that over there? Or am I mixing that up with one of the other billion loser liberal blogs that have bitten the dust over the past decade or so?

Anyway, people wanted to know if they could create some sort of posting that was all about action. Say, signage stand-outs for Bernie (making that up) or GOTV. Of course the trolls would pile in to debate against the purpose of the action. In other words, you couldn't even write something that said, OK, this is just to organize the carpools, because the site owner stepped in to defend shitposting to distract from organizing. If people couldn't tell right then and there that the paid purpose of the site was to stop action, I don't know what to tell you.

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lotlizard's picture

“Caucus” diaries were to be what would nowadays be called a “safe space” for commenters interested in organizing around a particular action, event, or cause.

Owner said no dice.

Then primary season rolled around, and the same owner came out in favor of certain diaries — and eventually his whole d--ned site — being declared a “safe space” for people who were pro-Hillary.

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Cant Stop the Macedonian Signal's picture

after all, when the Progressive Caucus, or even the Blue Dog Caucus, meets on the Hill, it's not like I can burst in there in a purple tutu singing songs from South Pacific:

[video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Xny7G9YrrBU]

It's an accepted part of our politics that people who agree on basic issues can get together and discuss what's to be done. And even argue about it! It would be extraordinarily disruptive to have somebody come into the the Progressive Caucus and loudly declaim the theories of Milton Friedman every five minutes, just as it would be disruptive to burst in on the Republicans singing the Internationale:

[video:https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QP4l_PeBMyk]

And honestly, I don't even support doing that sort of thing to Republicans!

But that's what the insistence on constant "freedom" over at DKos created, in digital form: unless you were donating to a Democrat, or engaging in some site-approved thing, discussions of tactics were not allowed to happen in peace.

I even pointed out that, with each poster able to write an infinite number of diaries, there was no reason they couldn't write their *own* diary in which they disagree with the premise of whatever Caucus diary they disliked. It wasn't like they were being kept from expressing themselves.

The problem was that I wanted to prevent them from coming into a diary and shitting all over the conversation.

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"More for Gore or the son of a drug lord--None of the above, fuck it, cut the cord."
--Zack de la Rocha

"I tell you I'll have nothing to do with the place...The roof of that hall is made of bones."
-- Fiver

Cant Stop the Macedonian Signal's picture

that became this site, actually. Smile

If Markos had been reasonable about Caucus, I probably would never have started the Google group.

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"More for Gore or the son of a drug lord--None of the above, fuck it, cut the cord."
--Zack de la Rocha

"I tell you I'll have nothing to do with the place...The roof of that hall is made of bones."
-- Fiver

lotlizard's picture

Remember, an anagram of "Hillary Rodham Clinton" is "I'd only thrill a monarch!"

The sad thing is, the Saudi, Qatari, Bahraini, Emirati, Jordanian, and Moroccan monarchs are all way more brutish, clownish, and ignorant than even Trump, but virtually all Western leaders suck up to said monarchs with pleasure.

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